Exactly one hour ago I checked into this newsgroup and found no posts. I turned to my imaginary friend and said, "I'll be anything you want that Ollie posts within the hour."

"I'm good with that", my friend replied, "let's mark the time." And we did.. It was 1:11pm exactly. Every ten minutes I'd check the group. No progress. But I still have time. We always have time. It never runs out. Don't give up, don't ever give up = that's my message.

Now we were down to one minute to go. We were in the newsgroup with me pounding the refresh button every 5 seconds. My friend began to laugh and gloat. "It's not over yet", I boomed, all the way thinking for sure it was.

Then I saw post number one come through. The time? 2:11pm on the nose. I beat the time. I had an hour and that's exactly what it took, almost as if I were psychic. I won the bet as always - but haven't been paid yet. But don't worry, I'll get the son of a bitch. One way or the other he's going to pay.

On Thursday, May 13, 2021 at 2:48:39 PM UTC-4, jazee...@gmail.com wrote:
> Exactly one hour ago I checked into this newsgroup and found no posts. I turned to my imaginary friend and said, "I'll be anything you want that Ollie posts within the hour."
>
> "I'm good with that", my friend replied, "let's mark the time." And we did. It was 1:11pm exactly. Every ten minutes I'd check the group. No progress. But I still have time. We always have time. It never runs out. Don't give up, don't ever give up = that's my message.
>
> Now we were down to one minute to go. We were in the newsgroup with me pounding the refresh button every 5 seconds. My friend began to laugh and gloat. "It's not over yet", I boomed, all the way thinking for sure it was.
>
> Then I saw post number one come through. The time? 2:11pm on the nose. I beat the time. I had an hour and that's exactly what it took, almost as if I were psychic. I won the bet as always - but haven't been paid yet. But don't worry, I'll get the son of a bitch. One way or the other he's going to pay.

I am sick today. Laid in bed. Got an earache. I feel like shit. But I post anyway. I care.

> I am sick today. Laid in bed. Got an earache. I feel like shit. But I post anyway. I care.

No way am I trying to outdo you, but today I got out of this building for the first time since Thursday 10 days ago. I walked 5 minutes uptown and 5 back and it was a big deal. I'm amazed I can still walk after all that time in bed. I will not complain for the simple obvious reason that I volunteered for the bed, it didn't reach out and snag me. Most of my problems which thankfully are not many in number are of my own doing. I was too out of it, unable to sleep for 2 days, just lying there, too tired to go out and get food - wondering how long it takes to starve to death or get sick from it (and not wanting to go there). So today I got out and out. But as I lay in bed all those days, the past 3 especially, I wondered often to the point of not being able to sleep, "I wonder how Ollie is handling the Josephlessness in his life right now." Then I wondered, "Maybe Ollie will think I found a better newsgroup. Ok the truth is out. I found a great one. Very active. I would love to give you their address but I don't want you to go there and destroy the place. I want to be the one who does it.

> I am sick today. Laid in bed. Got an earache. I feel like shit. But I post anyway. I care.

Caring is good. I saw today a survey that said 10,000 people were asked if they care and all but 4 said yes. So you are not alone. A lot of people care. They care so much they want to be first in line to help. This is often referred to as the "first responder gold rush". Everyone in the world cares and craves peace on earth good will toward all men. But they want it established their way or no way at all. That is how war starts, arguments over how to implement peace. Earache, eh? Only had one in my life - a big one. Same with a toothache. I've had small aches and pains but only one real "tooth attack" in my life - same with ear attacks. No fun throbbing from the top of you head down into the shoulder blades.

DO YOU HEAR ME?

On Sunday, May 16, 2021 at 5:44:06 PM UTC-4, jazee...@gmail.com wrote:
> > I am sick today. Laid in bed. Got an earache. I feel like shit. But I post anyway. I care.
> Caring is good. I saw today a survey that said 10,000 people were asked if they care and all but 4 said yes. So you are not alone. A lot of people care. They care so much they want to be first in line to help. This is often referred to as the "first responder gold rush". Everyone in the world cares and craves peace on earth good will toward all men. But they want it established their way or no way at all. That is how war starts, arguments over how to implement peace. Earache, eh? Only had one in my life - a big one. Same with a toothache. I've had small aches and pains but only one real "tooth attack" in my life - same with ear attacks. No fun throbbing from the top of you head down into the shoulder blades.
>
> DO YOU HEAR ME?

I have always had earaches. I am prone to them. I would have been dead meat before antibiotics. Maybe I am dead meat just preserved.

> I have always had earaches. I am prone to them. I would have been dead meat before antibiotics. Maybe I am dead meat just preserved.

"Get your canned dead meat here!" Prone to earaches. Weird. I was always prone to sore throats - probably because I smoked a lot as a kid. Only one ear ache in my life - but it was the real deal. I needed the antibiotics.. Who knows, maybe your parents used a lot of antibiotics and you need more of them as a result. Blame your parents. Take them to court. Drag them in if you have to.

By the way, I know I am looking for excuses to not give doctors or even science any credit - not that I need excuses. I do believe too many drugs are going into people's bodies. But I am not an activist against it. I know everyone is different and some people really need mediation. But I also know that many people use meds they only think they need. Going to the dentist tomorrow. I dread it. Will try to explain where my tooth hurts. Point it out to them just to hear them say, "I don't see anything." I dread the potential conflict. Every time I go in I come out worse. So now here we go again. I want this tooth shored up, holes filled, whatever it takes. Once that is done - if it's done - I will not go back for any work unless pain drives me to it.

On Monday, May 17, 2021 at 3:35:55 PM UTC-4, jazee...@gmail.com wrote:
> > I have always had earaches. I am prone to them. I would have been dead meat before antibiotics. Maybe I am dead meat just preserved.
> "Get your canned dead meat here!" Prone to earaches. Weird. I was always prone to sore throats - probably because I smoked a lot as a kid. Only one ear ache in my life - but it was the real deal. I needed the antibiotics. Who knows, maybe your parents used a lot of antibiotics and you need more of them as a result. Blame your parents. Take them to court. Drag them in if you have to.
>
> By the way, I know I am looking for excuses to not give doctors or even science any credit - not that I need excuses. I do believe too many drugs are going into people's bodies. But I am not an activist against it. I know everyone is different and some people really need mediation. But I also know that many people use meds they only think they need. Going to the dentist tomorrow. I dread it. Will try to explain where my tooth hurts. Point it out to them just to hear them say, "I don't see anything." I dread the potential conflict. Every time I go in I come out worse. So now here we go again. I want this tooth shored up, holes filled, whatever it takes. Once that is done - if it's done - I will not go back for any work unless pain drives me to it.

I tried to tough this out but it wasn't getting better. I guess in the old days you just took it till the ear exploded and puss and shit spewed out. Then it scared over and was never infected again. Or it killed you. What a choice.

> I tried to tough this out but it wasn't getting better. I guess in the old days you just took it till the ear exploded and puss and shit spewed out.. Then it scarred over and was never infected again. Or it killed you. What a choice.

I am not Mr. Tough Guy. Not by a long shot. I will take meds when needed but don't want to build a tolerance to them. Your comments about ‘scarring over’ are how I feel about having a heart attack or a stroke. I believe a person can have either and not know it. It’s a medical fact, it happens. Sometimes the body creates new veins. I might be lying in bed feeling a bit odd in the chest - anxiety, whatever - wondering what I will do if it gets worse. Will I call the hospital? Yes, when I can’t get air or the pain becomes unbearable.

I seriously wonder how many times in our lives our bodies have repaired themselves and we didn’t even know something was wrong. If we went to the hospital for everything we might be dead today. Twice in the past 5 years I went through a 4 or 5 day period where I felt sort of dizzy, like I was leaning to one side when I walked, sometimes having to stop and prop myself up against a building till things felt right. Then I'd continue on my way. It went away on its own. Had I gone to the hospital, who is to say what would have happened? It could have, probably would have, resulted in a bunch of unnecessary tests yielding no answers along with a bunch of unnecessary medications to turn my body to mush. Who really knows? So believe me I am not against getting help when needed. The earache I had, and the lone toothache when I was 17 - bad, real bad, punching the walls, howling, moaning around in the bed - yes, I would go to the hospital for those if only to get something for the pain.

I have so little faith in doctors I sometimes actually wish for my ailments to get worse so they become bad enough to be ID'd instead of coming away in a mystery. I remember years ago driving cab I had a cough that would not go away. It messed bad with my sleep, which already sucked. It went on a few weeks before I vowed to hit the emergency room. I was in the cab telling a regular customer about it. I told her I was hoping I had pneumonia. She said, "Are you fucking joking?", then added, "bullshit, you don't really wish that." I told her I most certainly do. "I know pneumonia can be a bad thing", I told her, "but at least they know what it is and what to do with it." I was serious. Well, I went to the emergency room and they took X-rays and so forth and I did not have pneumonia. Now I was really worried.. "Are they going to find anything? What are they going to do?" They gave me 4 prescriptions, 3 of which I knew would not work because I had already taken them. The final 'script was a 5 day jolt of steroids. That night I went to the all nite pharmacy nearby to cash the scripts. The pharmacist looked at them and said, "Wow. You know, there's a lot of people coming in the past few weeks with these exact scripts." I liked that the guy was observant and willing to talk about it. It took another week or so for it to leave and I'm not sure the 'roids had anything to do with it, although they probably did.

Too tough to claim to be tough. I aint tough but the tough don't fuck with me.

> My ear is getting better. Anti biotics are great. But is the bacteria really tougher than the old days because of them? Was there a time when we could have easily resisted on our own? Was it all a setup?

I am glad your ear is better. Now you can listen to everything I say and fully abzorb it. I have taken antibiotics, but only when I felt I needed them. I do not want to build the tolerance. I have been prescribed antibiotics I never cashed because I didn't feel the need. Good to cash them in anyway to have them around for something later. The dentist is a good example. They pulled a tooth and gave me a really small script for pain (not needed but also great to have on hand), plus antibiotics. I cashed both but never took the antibiotics. Why? Just because they say so? You had an earache. That is reason enough to take them. But I don't take them just because they say I should. I do believe we get used to all this shit. They say we are what we eat. If this is true it must also apply to medications. I am not Mr. Tough Guy or Mr. Back to Nature, but I will resist taking anything into my body that must become a full-time resident in order to work. I won't take any pills that must be taken every day. At some point maybe - but right now no.

On Thursday, May 20, 2021 at 5:28:13 PM UTC-4, jazee...@gmail.com wrote:
> > My ear is getting better. Anti biotics are great. But is the bacteria really tougher than the old days because of them? Was there a time when we could have easily resisted on our own? Was it all a setup?
> I am glad your ear is better. Now you can listen to everything I say and fully abzorb it. I have taken antibiotics, but only when I felt I needed them. I do not want to build the tolerance. I have been prescribed antibiotics I never cashed because I didn't feel the need. Good to cash them in anyway to have them around for something later. The dentist is a good example. They pulled a tooth and gave me a really small script for pain (not needed but also great to have on hand), plus antibiotics. I cashed both but never took the antibiotics. Why? Just because they say so? You had an earache. That is reason enough to take them. But I don't take them just because they say I should. I do believe we get used to all this shit. They say we are what we eat. If this is true it must also apply to medications. I am not Mr. Tough Guy or Mr. Back to Nature, but I will resist taking anything into my body that must become a full-time resident in order to work. I won't take any pills that must be taken every day. At some point maybe - but right now no..

My ears are bad. Like a birth defect. Always have trouble with them. I need special privileges because of it. I am a victim.

> My ears are bad. Like a birth defect. Always have trouble with them. I need special privileges because of it. I am a victim.

Probably all that surfing you used to do. Maybe you got some jelly fish eggs in your ears. No really though, think back. When did the ear aches first start? See, these are the kinds of questions I would ask if I were a doctor. I would get to the bottom of your problem. No machines. No graphs. No beeping lights and a bunch of numbers. Strictly intuitive stuff - because as you well know I am an intuitive genius.

"What was that you said? Something about special privileges? Speak up, I can't hear you. You are not coming through. Repeat: You are not coming through."

On Friday, May 21, 2021 at 4:15:27 PM UTC-4, jazee...@gmail.com wrote:
> > My ears are bad. Like a birth defect. Always have trouble with them. I need special privileges because of it. I am a victim.
> Probably all that surfing you used to do. Maybe you got some jelly fish eggs in your ears. No really though, think back. When did the ear aches first start? See, these are the kinds of questions I would ask if I were a doctor. I would get to the bottom of your problem. No machines. No graphs. No beeping lights and a bunch of numbers. Strictly intuitive stuff - because as you well know I am an intuitive genius.
>
> "What was that you said? Something about special privileges? Speak up, I can't hear you. You are not coming through. Repeat: You are not coming through."

I got them way before I ever surfed. Got them as a little kid. This goes way back and deep. Like the JFK assasination. I know it is all related. The grassy knoll and my inner ear. All part of that big one soul.

> I got them way before I ever surfed. Got them as a little kid. This goes way back and deep. Like the JFK assasination. I know it is all related. The grassy knoll and my inner ear. All part of that big one soul.

Well, you may not be on the mark with your conspiracy theory, but there is a conspiracy, no doubt about that. Perhaps together we can figure it out, maybe even do something about it. Of course your ear problem is a walking twilight zone episode with you offering to exchange it for something else - migraine headaches, allergies, asthma, you name it. As bad as your ear problems are, let's be honest in our assessment as we struggle to find answers - it could always be worse. Your ears could actually be your strong point, not your weak point as you assume. You see, because your ears are so strong they volunteer to take on every nasty predator other parts of your body are dealing with. Your earaches are the result of friendly germs in your ears taking up the fight for other less strong parts of your body. Your ears are your saviors.

On Saturday, May 22, 2021 at 2:19:04 PM UTC-4, jazee...@gmail.com wrote:
> > I got them way before I ever surfed. Got them as a little kid. This goes way back and deep. Like the JFK assasination. I know it is all related. The grassy knoll and my inner ear. All part of that big one soul.
> Well, you may not be on the mark with your conspiracy theory, but there is a conspiracy, no doubt about that. Perhaps together we can figure it out, maybe even do something about it. Of course your ear problem is a walking twilight zone episode with you offering to exchange it for something else - migraine headaches, allergies, asthma, you name it. As bad as your ear problems are, let's be honest in our assessment as we struggle to find answers - it could always be worse. Your ears could actually be your strong point, not your weak point as you assume. You see, because your ears are so strong they volunteer to take on every nasty predator other parts of your body are dealing with. Your earaches are the result of friendly germs in your ears taking up the fight for other less strong parts of your body. Your ears are your saviors.

I think it is a birth defect. Something went wrong when I was in the womb. I want answers. Who can help me? Tell me!

> I think it is a birth defect. Something went wrong when I was in the womb.. I want answers. Who can help me? Tell me!

Funny thing, I was thinking about the womb tonight after seeing a hen on a sitcom lay a few eggs. I began to wonder about creatures born in eggs. They provide protection, don't they? But they are also very visible to predators. Imagine being in an egg, just coming to life, ready to burst free, kicking those legs, thrashing all about to bust out when all of a sudden a giant set of teeth descend on you and chew you in half with one chomp. Would you feel it? Oh hell yes. I don't care how quick it happens, you always feel it. Also, remember - whatever happens to an egg creature can just as easily happen to one in a womb.

I looked at that egg and thought of ostriches and other cousins to the dinosaur. I wondered, does the egg have any benefit over the rawness of womb birth? How about the cocoon? Humans are womb babies. But was it always that way? I mean way back, prehistoric days. Maybe we laid eggs then too. I say this because it's really hard to imagine a human baby making it in the wild without it's parents. Come on man, it takes them more than a year to learn how to walk, how are they going to make it in the wild? At least when creatures burst out of their eggs they are ready to face the world. I wonder, really, if you took a million infants and put them in the forest, would any of them make it to the point of being able to walk? It's hard to imagine. Some creatures have to adapt fast. Lobsters for example. I read that mother lobsters give baby lobsters approximately one day to learn how to get around on their own, and if they don't she eats them. Anyway, I guess there is something to be said for the egg.

On Sunday, May 23, 2021 at 2:19:16 PM UTC-4, jazee...@gmail.com wrote:
> I looked at that egg and thought of ostriches and other cousins to the dinosaur. I wondered, does the egg have any benefit over the rawness of womb birth? How about the cocoon? Humans are womb babies. But was it always that way? I mean way back, prehistoric days. Maybe we laid eggs then too. I say this because it's really hard to imagine a human baby making it in the wild without it's parents. Come on man, it takes them more than a year to learn how to walk, how are they going to make it in the wild? At least when creatures burst out of their eggs they are ready to face the world. I wonder, really, if you took a million infants and put them in the forest, would any of them make it to the point of being able to walk? It's hard to imagine. Some creatures have to adapt fast. Lobsters for example. I read that mother lobsters give baby lobsters approximately one day to learn how to get around on their own, and if they don't she eats them. Anyway, I guess there is something to be said for the egg.

Some animals have to hit it running. The human baby takes the longest it seems. May be other animals as slow to get started. But humans once we get going we do not stop.

> Some animals have to hit it running. The human baby takes the longest it seems. May be other animals as slow to get started. But humans once we get going we do not stop.

Stories about human raised by wild animals are always interesting even if they probably are pure fiction. I suppose it's possible. It would have to be for a human infant to have any kind of chance. Yes, once we get started we are hard to stop. But can we get started on our own. The more evolved we become the weaker we get. How many millions of human infants must die alone in the forest for one to make it out alive? Tarzan of the Apes style. I don't think it's possible. If Dr. Moreau were alive I'd ask him. Maybe Mr. Shit knows. He knew Moreau personally.

On Sunday, May 23, 2021 at 7:55:01 PM UTC-4, jazee...@gmail.com wrote:
> > Some animals have to hit it running. The human baby takes the longest it seems. May be other animals as slow to get started. But humans once survivazwe get going we do not stop.
> Stories about human raised by wild animals are always interesting even if they probably are pure fiction. I suppose it's possible. It would have to be for a human infant to have any kind of chance. Yes, once we get started we are hard to stop. But can we get started on our own. The more evolved we become the weaker we get. How many millions of human infants must die alone in the forest for one to make it out alive? Tarzan of the Apes style. I don't think it's possible. If Dr. Moreau were alive I'd ask him. Maybe Mr. Shit knows. He knew Moreau personally.

Evolution has been a detriment to wild survival of humans. We require much care until we are about 40 yeas old. At the time our 2nd divorce is final..

> Evolution has been a detriment to wild survival of humans. We require much care until we are about 40 yeas old. At the time our 2nd divorce is final..

Some animals are not wired to attack. A deer for instance. I'm sure it has defenses, but mostly it's a runner. I remember one night walking home 3 miles after driving the cab and passing a large deer on the lawn of a home I was passing. It was a big one. My first thought was, "Man, if that thing wanted to it could probably bowl me over if it decided to charge." But the deer is not wired that way. Lots of animals, even small ones, would give humans a hard time in the wild. Raccoons, groundhogs - they can boogey down when backed into a corner. And on a worldwide basis let's not forget the ostrich and the emu. Those fuckers can kick a human to pieces if they feel the need. Yes the more advanced we become the more help we need to stay alive. I suppose if a thousand 5 year old kids were set loose on a jungle island there would be a few survivors 5 years down the road. But an infant? I find that hard to believe. The only way to know for sure is to experiment. These are the kind of experiments most find horrific or needless unless something good comes from them. We are germs, all of us. I know it. Most Australian aborigines did not die in out and out attacks from the British, most died from illnesses the Brits brought with them to the island. Same with American indians.

Quite a success story for all who live

On Monday, May 24, 2021 at 6:49:36 PM UTC-4, jazee...@gmail.com wrote:
> > Evolution has been a detriment to wild survival of humans. We require much care until we are about 40 yeas old. At the time our 2nd divorce is final.
> Some animals are not wired to attack. A deer for instance. I'm sure it has defenses, but mostly it's a runner. I remember one night walking home 3 miles after driving the cab and passing a large deer on the lawn of a home I was passing. It was a big one. My first thought was, "Man, if that thing wanted to it could probably bowl me over if it decided to charge." But the deer is not wired that way. Lots of animals, even small ones, would give humans a hard time in the wild. Raccoons, groundhogs - they can boogey down when backed into a corner. And on a worldwide basis let's not forget the ostrich and the emu. Those fuckers can kick a human to pieces if they feel the need. Yes the more advanced we become the more help we need to stay alive. I suppose if a thousand 5 year old kids were set loose on a jungle island there would be a few survivors 5 years down the road. But an infant? I find that hard to believe. The only way to know for sure is to experiment. These are the kind of experiments most find horrific or needless unless something good comes from them. We are germs, all of us. I know it. Most Australian aborigines did not die in out and out attacks from the British, most died from illnesses the Brits brought with them to the island. Same with American indians.
>
> Quite a success story for all who live

The Nazis using Jews had the freedom to try wild shit. Maybe they did do an experiment with kids to see how young they can be and survive. Of course using Jew kids is not the same as negroes.

> The Nazis using Jews had the freedom to try wild shit. Maybe they did do an experiment with kids to see how young they can be and survive. Of course using Jew kids is not the same as negroes.

I think we've got a false reading here, Joe. I'll ask them. Whoops, seems like they used Jews and Negroes in their experiments. The reading were probably accurate but apply only to Jews and Negroes. We need more White guinea pigs. We will use them for valuable research. Nothing involving death.. We only have so many whites. We're going to need to reuse them.

On 5/25/2021 4:38 PM, Thomas Joseph wrote:
>
>> The Nazis using Jews had the freedom to try wild shit. Maybe they did do an experiment with kids to see how young they can be and survive. Of course using Jew kids is not the same as negroes.
>
>
> I think we've got a false reading here, Joe. I'll ask them. Whoops, seems like they used Jews and Negroes in their experiments. The reading were probably accurate but apply only to Jews and Negroes. We need more White guinea pigs. We will use them for valuable research. Nothing involving death. We only have so many whites. We're going to need to reuse them.
>

When is comes to guinea pigs, nobody works better than a negroe. They're
strong, they're talented, but they have no friggin brains. Experiment
away if you wish. Save the Jews for things they're good at, like
scrubbing the streets clean as they did in Austria circa 1938

On Monday, August 9, 2021 at 3:35:45 PM UTC-4, Judith Latham wrote:
> On 5/25/2021 4:38 PM, Thomas Joseph wrote:
> >
> >> The Nazis using Jews had the freedom to try wild shit. Maybe they did do an experiment with kids to see how young they can be and survive. Of course using Jew kids is not the same as negroes.
> >
> >
> > I think we've got a false reading here, Joe. I'll ask them. Whoops, seems like they used Jews and Negroes in their experiments. The reading were probably accurate but apply only to Jews and Negroes. We need more White guinea pigs. We will use them for valuable research. Nothing involving death. We only have so many whites. We're going to need to reuse them.
> >
> When is comes to guinea pigs, nobody works better than a negroe. They're
> strong, they're talented, but they have no friggin brains. Experiment
> away if you wish. Save the Jews for things they're good at, like
> scrubbing the streets clean as they did in Austria circa 1938

Hitler was concerned that the Jews had forgotten what menial work was like. he wanted them to experience it so they would be more compassionate. It worked. Look how compassionate they treat the Palenstinians.

> Hitler was concerned that the Jews had forgotten what menial work was like. he wanted them to experience it so they would be more compassionate. It worked. Look how compassionate they treat the Palenstinians.

Everyone could use a little menial labor now and then. When I was in the reform school there were many chores for different guys. But in the morning everybody scrubbed the big marble floors. Or maybe they were concrete, but they were large squares and they were strong. We got down with buckets of soap and water and scrubbed the floor with soft bristled brushes. Then we ran soapy rags over the squares. Then clear water to rinse it off. On our knees rolling out and back in, really giving the stomach a great workout, which of course I did not think about at the time. Then dry rags were dragged out across the damp squares. No talking was allowed. So there were like 50 guys all down with their own buckets of water and soap and rags and brushes, yet although they were together there was a blissful moment of solitude to the chore. I always thought when I was younger if I had enough money I'd buy a small pickup truck to haul janitorial equipment around to businesses closed for the night with no one around, just you and the job, ear phones on or talking out loud to yourself with no one over your shoulder. Of course it's a job so you've got to know there's something about it that sucks big time - but to me it always seemed like if I had to work it wouldn't be a bad way to go. But only at night in places that are closed where I can do what I want while doing a really good job.