On 9/7/2021 7:29 PM, Thomas Joseph wrote:
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>> When it comes to being aesthetically-challenged, nobody can compete with
>> my sister Sarah. It's the kind of face that only a mother can love.
>> Picture a female Bozo. Now you get it.
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> Picturing Bozo could be unfair as I have never seen him. Sure, I get hints in his words. I have also talking with him. But you can't always go by voice. In fact it's a good policy to never go by voice. But yes I would say Bozo is probably on the ugly side. But is he ugly enough to win an ugly contest? Is he prize-winning ugly? You may not be ugly. But you are obese. That is not a good start when it comes to image fancying. In fact, in "Who's the Ugliest?" contest it's unfair to be noticeably overweight or to have a handicap of any kind that might direct attention away from your face. We want to see the face alone and judge on that. They say ugly is in the soul. And they are right. But believe me, in the end it all comes down to the face. The face is the soul's asshole. it's where everything comes out. The soul is invisible. It cannot be seen, even by professional soul seekers. In the meantime, to get the most accurate ugly rating we recommend scoping out the face. Get in close. Focus. Concentrate. If the ugly is there, believe me, it will come out.
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> I'll whip the ugly outta ya
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I wish I could turn Sarah's ugly self inside out so you could see how
beautiful she really is. But I can't, so she wins the prize of 'most
ugly' hands down. Instead of looking at me as fat, look at it this way;
there's more of me to love. I'll rock your world!

> I find ugly in many places. It is not hard to find. Beauty is what is lacking. Go out and find what you can - ugly, beauty, it doesn't matter.

Feeling really down today, are we? Or have you finally succumbed to the realization that you are going to die soon. "It doesn't matter", you say, but I don't believe you. I believe you think it matters a lot. You care. You care a lot. But you are trying to make yourself look cynical so everyone will think you are an artist or deep thinker of some sort. Yes, it is easy to find ugly in many places in a world that mostly ugly to you in the first place. I look at the world, at life in general, and I see beauty. Do you hear me? Beauty. And we both know it matters. But even if it doesn't matter that's ok too. That's the beauty of it.

I want to die tonight. If it happens and you learn of it I do not want you to picture me crawled up in a ball in the corner whimpering and pleading for just one more gulp of air. I want you to picture me as I will be (if it happens) - content with a smile on my face.

> I wish I could turn Sarah's ugly self inside out so you could see how
> beautiful she really is. But I can't, so she wins the prize of 'most
> ugly' hands down. Instead of looking at me as fat, look at it this way;
> there's more of me to love. I'll rock your world!

Judith, the most beautiful woman in the world, by my standards, could come to me willingly tonight and I wouldn't be able to do anything about it. I'm dead down there. Nothing but fantasies will rock my world. My world is my own. You cannot rock it. But you are welcome to try. Please, for the love of God, lose weight now. It's not about appearance, it's about life - it's about living life to the fullest, including time wise. We who like you want you to stick around. We need you. Please don't die on us. Lose the weight. Now. For you own good. And for us.